#Alifetimeofgratitude

Two weeks ago, I let myself drink until I was almost wasted. I don't remember the last time I got drunk so this was a first time in a long time. The next day was a reminder of why I hardly drink anymore haha or at least not to that extent.

Drinking that day was different because I think it was the second time I was with A and being so almost completely gone while he was still completely sober (that makes him the more sensible one between us). It was different because despite being dead drunk, I was still subtly aware of how he took care of me, tucking me in to bed and pushing the hair out of my face and stroking my head as he waited till I slept before returning to games with his friends. I woke up the next day feeling like crap at my own behaviour and the hangover throbbing in my skull but feeling incredibly blessed at the same time, remembering A looking out for me and having my back even at times when I really don't deserve it.

This is just one of the many many things he has selflessly done for me and I'm trying to remember all of it.

It's not just #100daysofthingstobethankfulabout but #alifetimeofgratitude .