Had dinner with a good friend yesterday and what
was supposed to be a short and quick session eventually stretched out to almost
4 hours worth of catch up. At this point, I am feeling exhausted and sleepy
beyond reason but ironically my mind is clearer than ever. One memorable point
that came up was about knowing how our lives will pan out, and about what we
choose to do with it.. knowing that we can either lead our lives in that known
direction and hence sealing our fate, or really playing it in our own hands.
Got me thinking that a palm-reader once told me
something positive about my life and I’m not sure whether it is because of him
that I am now leading my life towards that direction, or you know, because
destiny. Haaa.
One thing I am a strong believer of though is that people
can always choose to be in control of their lives and how they live it. Internal
locus of control, that’s what they call it right? Maybe this belief is an
ingrained character trait of mine. You want to be rich, work for it. You want
to live a life of a traveler, quit your job and find something that suits you.
You want to be happy, be. You, not anyone else, are the sole reason for your
consequence.
I had the strongest desire to pen down so many
thoughts and a whirlwind of emotions - all toxic, no positivity. Then it came
to me that this is just not worth it. I want no part of this negativity and
nonsense. There are much more important things in my life that are worth my
love and attention and this will not be it. This will be the end of page 9/365.
A page I will flip, and not re-read.
I have done my part. My conscience is clear. I
sleep well at night, and I hope you do too.
