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I love you Mummy. I know i may not show it or say it often, or even at all..but i really do. You are the most amazing, patient, sweetest, pleasant and loving mum a daughter can ever hope to have.
If I could turn back time, I wouldn't have been so impatient and annoyed over the most trivial things..if i wasn't so blinded by my hot-temperedness i would have picked up signs that you were not OK..if i could have been just a little kinder to you, maybe things would be different now. Maybe things wouldn't have deteriorated so quickly. But i can't turn back time and i can only hope to make amends that would never completely make up for the all the wrong i did.
I am so, so sorry. I will never forgive myself for being such a horrible daughter to you that evening.
I just want to tell you that while the last two days has been extremely traumatizing and taxing for the whole family..there was a glimmer of silver lining out of this..our family is even more bonded and closer than it was before..and we are so determined to get you well again.
I would also like to say how proud i am of you..despite being put through such agony, you have been so strong and pleasant and positive about it. You are always so eager us so as not to worry the family..and even though you are the patient, you are still fussing over us as though we are the ones who need to be taken care of, instead of you yourself. We have heard so many stories about other patients being so angry and frustrated but you have been nothing but sweet and easy going..and i don't know.. i just have so much to learn from you and i really wish i could have inherited some of your patience and positivity.
Right now..we are back to basics and you are still learning to pronounce our names and basic conversational English which you have been doing such a marvelous job in. You have made a remarkable improvement since yesterday and I am just so happy to see you getting better, slowly but surely each day. It's too early to say but i do hope that maybe, you will even make a 100% recovery so that you can have your retirement and travel the world with Papa and just truly enjoy life as it is. You deserve this happiness more than anybody else. You must get well.
Please stay strong and happy, Mummy. I love you.
