Second move

When you're feeling so upset that your heart just constricts itself and you can't breathe.

You surprised me, and it wasn't in a good way. So surprised that I'm not sure what to do now. I'm not willing to let it go nor am I even thinking about it, but I feel so sick of being the first one to make the move. The first one to woo, the first to ask, the first to initiate, the first to everything.

I'm a girl after all. Which girl doesn't love being chased, being asked out, being the point of attraction rather than the one who does the attracting? To feel loved, appreciated, the thrill of being chased? I had none of it but that was fine..I'm really just your dead average girl nobody will take a second glance at on the streets. I'm fine with being the one who took the first step and succeeded in getting what I wanted and I'm proud of having done so.

But it's been awhile now. I'm still initiating. And initiating. Always initiating.

I'm just about done making all the first moves. I'm tired of being the one who wants. I want to be wanted.

Maybe it's about time you realize it's your move now.