Excessive

I hate how when I love somebody I want so much for them or from them, my emotions blind me and I dont realize how I'm actually suffocating them. Wish I was one of those girls who arent so needy, so vulnerable..constantly wearing my heart on my sleeve. I know i shouldn't be questioning this but why do words always seem to contradict actions? If you really meant what you said no factors would be a consideration for you to find me, especially at this point. If you really meant it.